I don’t often get too sappy, but it’s been an emotional week for me. Maybe it’s PMS, maybe I am just tired (I do think I have gotten some daycare funk from my angel), maybe I am just going soft…What ever it is, this week has reminded me of one very important thing, often pushed in the back of my mind in the hustle and bustle of the everyday, I need to take a moment to be thankful for all the things I do have in life. It’s not always easy to take a time out, human nature has us constantly trying to do more, be more, attain more…more, more, more! SO I am taking a time out, reflecting on the positives, shooing out the negative, and embracing all that I do have in my world.
Life doesn’t always happen for us how we plan for it to be, I mean seriously, you might think that would be awesome, but it would likely be boring, the big guy is way more creative than we are! For instance, if I was to live my ‘plan’ – I would not have allowed myself to be open and vulnerable enough to find my best friend and hubby. I would not have been receptive to the idea of experiencing the birth of another child, and I certainly would have missed spending my days being thoroughly entertained by a man with a sense of humor that rivals Tosh.0, and seriously – how fun would that have been?
I know I am blessed everyday I wake up, and honestly I am so fortunate to have married my best friend, a man who loves my son as his own, and has given me (ok, technically I did the giving, but he is 50% responsible) the most beautiful daughter in the world. Not everyday is sunshine & butterflies coming out of my butt, that’s not realistic, but it is perfectly imperfect and everyday we work together, to be the best we can be; for each other, our children, our family and our friends… go TeamEpton!
I will admit, I am not the easiest person to get along with sometimes, not like a complete b!tch, but as my mother said once, ‘Well dear, you are a bit standoffish’. I also love to hear people say I am intimidating… me? I’d say, confindent…or as my twenties slowly emerged to my 30’s and I was still single (which everyone else seemed to have an issue with, and would spout things like “I wish you’d just find someone to make you happy” – make
me happy? I’m in charge of my happiness, no one person is going to make me anything…lol), they would say, “Well it’s because you are so independent and successful.” There could have been some truth to that, but I figured if there was someone out there that fit the Ying to my Yang, he’d have to be pretty awesome! He would be very patient, and kind, yet, not take my sh#t in like a chocolate shake (or as it turns out, in his case, a Zaxby’s Birthday Cake Milkshake – which he is inconsolable right now with rumors it won’t return! Call to all Protesters!!!), and love me in my imperfect state because he doesn’t see it as imperfection, just character and personality. I would say I’ve always favored the characters with the storm cloud that followed them around, or in Grumpy Bears case, flames out of his a$$… but I don’t live like that…I wouldn’t be able to stand myself.
I will say, I reflect today because this week has been filled with crap. Friends moving away, going through some bad situations, facing decisions they shouldn’t have to and being put in the ‘worst case’ scenarios of life. It makes me really appreciate the good things, big or small, in my own life. Of course, I urge everyone to do the same.
So here is to my Tenderheart Bear, I appreciate how you love me, even when I require a fire extinguisher AND I won’t lie, it helps that you know how to juggle too 🙂
Live. Laugh. Love. oh and Run… I had to get that in there…lol